My name on facebook is bird pithisis and I have been battling depression since I was around 6 years old and still today I am battling and have tried commmitting suicide when I was around 16 or 17, my depression is so bad that I cry sometimes out of nowhere it hurts inside I wanna cry while writing this ,there are tears filling in my eyes as I type now but I wanna talk about it now because I do not want to do anything to myself because of the people around me love me but I can’t stop it, I am 34 years old I am single and have no kids and have trouble’s holding onto a Job and drink when I can and smoke marijuana But not as much as I want to… Plus it hurts my relationships in a way that it makes me think that they do not care enough for me… I always feel that no one cares enough for me I have been raised in a residential school and hae always looked up to my brother and I love him for that, but when we drink we do not get along and I sometimes cry to him and tells me to forgive… But it is hard to forgive!!! Still today I cannot get myself to forgive, I wanna forgive but I can’t, this really hurts me… I wanna forgive I really do and I wanna be happy for once… I can’t keep going on like the way I am.
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