We’ll let me start off by saying I am 30 own a house (we’ll paying a mortgage), have a great career with a very good reputation at my career. Its when I am at work I am this confident, carasmatic, funny, saracstic person (witch I am the same with my friends). Now I like to drink, I usally don’t drink to get drink, but I do enjoy drinking. Its what my friends and I do. You know when my friends and I get together beer is always around….. We’ll get back to that, I have so much going for me in my life. Yet I missing that one thing someone to share it with. Now my last serious relationship was over 3 years ago. Then About 6 months ago one of my associates said she had a friend that I would be perfect for, I can tell you we were. Then just as things were getting good in the relationship she ended it (just out of the blue clear sky). Let me tell you I never had a heartache hurt soooo much. What kills me is it only lasted not even 3 months, and the pain I went through was worse than any breakup I have ever encountered……. I turned 30 like 2 weeks ago, and went to Vegas with my friends to celebrate my b-day. Had a great time (I have a good life). Since I got back I can’t stop crying, cause I am sooooo alone. Anyone who knows me would not belive me crying, I mean havn’t cried like this since my dad passed. I want someone in my life, but I also don’t ever want to go through that hurt again. And hurt is all I know about relationships. I am just so alone……….
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buddy you should consider yourself lucky, im turning 28 in may and still have never had a girlfriend, no job, still living with my parents, never own a vehicle of my own, have no friends, have no idea how to socialize with new people; alot of part of that comes from living a scizoaffective plus multiple personality disorders my whole life. to add i am taking like 10 pills in the morning a few in the middle of the day and about 13 at night. and still the doctors have no idea how to treat my depression. been trying for 7 yrs on all kinds of meds, putting me in socal situation where i just completely just freakout. no offence friend but you are living in “la gloria” which in spanish i believe not to sure means the glory. If i could live the life stlye you lead i know i would be 100% cured but according to my doctors, and what i see day in, and day out i am never gonna be cured of this horrible life i lead. well go luck and god bless friend. ps sorry for all the misspelling and all the wrong quotes or what ever there call havent been in school for 10 + years. have almost how to spell basic words.
I understand the heartache that your going through. You have everything else going for you but your missing that one thing. No matter how much success you achieve in other areas there’s still that one gap missing. When your around your friends and a lot of people you can play it off like your fine but when your alone you can’t get it off your mind and you are just so overwhelmed emotionally that you just wind up crying. There is a girl that I’m in love with and she just doesn’t feel the same way about me. She knows that I love her and she uses me because of that she only calls when she needs something and I always do what she asks. No matter how much she treats me like shit I still love her.
I like the saying “everything happends for a reason”. If you and your girlfriend broke up then maybe it simply wasnt meant to be. You will find someone out there who is right for you, you just need to keep your head up and get out there and enjoy life and I’m sure before you know it you will find someone who is right for you. Stay strong and try not to be so hard on yourself.