im a 16 year old girl who lost her father a year ago. i live with a brother who suffers from bipolar depression his moods switch on to me so im not too sure if im also depressed. my father was my bestfriend and i lost him.. he was everything to me and still will always be. theres this constand pain in my heart and it hurts i feel like im hurting so much the tears still have no problem falling. if i see a father and daughter together i cringe and cry and just strike with sadness and jealous because i lost the one man i could count on forever. he was young and it hurt and it was sudden. i was alone and he had a heart attack i feel sad because i didnt go with him to the hospital he told me to stay behind and i listened. i felt i should have gone, i felt he needed someone to hold his hand he had no one but me and i didnt even stand by his side. i didnt get to say i love you, all i got was the cops back at my door beating around the bush about my fathers death. and to top it all off they told me that there was a chance he’d be alive, then told me he died then he was alive again and then finally announced as dead. why dont you kill my sprite even more.. what should i do? i still feel happy and find i can keep my mind off things but am i depressed?
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You should speak to a doctor ASAP….I think you are in the right place. Sounds like depression to me… Good luck!
dear darling,
yes, your spirit has been damaged,
and now you have a HUGE whole in heart,
time will continue to pass and you will see,
your memory of the “event”/dad’s death day,
will begin to be replaced…
Dad’s best picture, his funny look, who looks like Dad now and your spirit will smile with those memories!
So-
hang on, surround yourself with a positive outlook-even in the face of sadness there is positive abound!!
if you need someone, reach out
God is ALWAYS there